I crave something

I crave for excitement and adventure. I crave for anything different from the usual day that goes by.

Being an unofficial graduate has its ups and downs. Ups being that I have all the free time to do anything and everything that I want. The downs being that I need money to do these things and thus have to work which ironically hampens my need to proceed with any plans and have fun.

Another thing about working is that you see the same old faces everyday. Even if You do happen to meet some interesting people some days you won't know when you would see them again.

My current life is dull that is all I can say. I have no existing social life as everybody is back in school or far away in another country. It is hard to make new friends when the people you meet are only during the fleeting few seconds during work time. And the people you work with are just...people you work with. Sigh.

Can't believe that I am so looking forward to go back to Malaysia. It has been 2 years almost and only now it hits me. I wonder if everything will improve when I get back home, this feeling of emptiness that I have been feeling for the past weeks. A friend once asked me whether do I ever have that sense of lonely feeling. Honestly it never really hit me till recently, I crave for friends (note plural not singular), I crave for a relationship (any form of it), I crave for my family (which I seldom do), but most of all I crave for something to make me feel alive.

I crave human contact.

Holy cow!

Nah...I did not really saw a holy cow.

Was listening to a song just recently after a marathon on House Season 5. Just realise that the song "Teardrop" by Newton Faulkner has the similar beat as the starting of House's intro song. Woah...

Googled it....and it is!!! well not by Newton Faulkner but rather by Massive Attack.

I know this is crazy, well not this maybe just me. With the result jitters and all. Damn excited and nervous and scared and happy. All mixed feelings inside.

*crosses fingers and toes*

The End, Finally.

Well this sorta marks the end of one chapter in my life (i.e. pre-school, primary school, high school etc.). I am finally done with studies. Period. Any further studying hence forth shall only be for fun. How studying can be fun in any sense, I have yet to find that out. So what are the chances?

Been looking forward to this year for a long time now. Imagine that a few years ago, I had a plan mapped out for my life. But some how over the years it got lost among the failing subjects. Now I am totally clueless and living by the moment. Hopefully I do not put it off this time as I have been doing all my life. Now....what is the plan...

Just found out that Daniel is going to get married this year September. The gal must be one hell of a convincer to be able to convince my brother who is forever shying away from the word 'marriage'. Too bad that I won't be able to witness their signing. But he said he will put off the dinner till next year. So many things I would like to know about the girl my brother is going to marry. Heck, I don't even know how she looks like. Knowing my brother, she would be small, thin and pretty. It's his typical type. Malaysian men's typical type. Oh well, I do wish them the best. As long as they give me nieces and nephews to play with.

Wonder what shall I do first when i get back to Malaysia...